I had a dream that seemed so real. It seemed like something that did happen. I actually had to look around to see if it had happened. Recently I was reminded about Ebeneezer Scrooge. What a great story he had. Basically got to have the ghost of Christmas Past, Present, and future show him what his actions were doing and how he needed to change or else face the consequences. So, it made me think that if those same ghosts came to visit me what would I change.
I could see lots of problems in the past that I would have changed. You now what they say about hindsight. It’s 20/20. (although this really makes me wonder since I don’t think I have ever had 20/20 vision ….) I can think of two things right off that I would change. I think my biggest problem is that the future ghost doesn’t seem to be showing me anything. It’s like it isn’t there. However, logic tells me that it is there. I just can’t see it. (and this is a big step for me since I don’t really have much logic in me at all…)
All we really want is to be loved and to be valued and possibly to be cherished. That’s not anything new. OK … back to my dream. I could see things happening to the people I love but I wasn’t a part of it. It was like I could see it, hear it, but not be in it. So, what does this say? I believe that we all have a purpose and that God needs each of us. If our lives are movies, they always can’t be happy comedies, or romantic flicks, they might be really sad dramas or horrible dramas where the main characters never get to be happy. (kind of like reading a Nicholas Sparks book where there seems to always be someone who has died)
ust because life isn’t happy or you feel like you have been praying and God is not wanting you to be loved or valued by others that doesn’t really mean that God doesn’t love you. I’m reminded of Job. Yuck. Why do we have to think about him? He had everything … and I mean everything … taken from him. His family, his wealth, etc No matter what was taken from him he still praised and put his faith in God. Job put his all in God.
I always have people say they are praying to God for patience and I warn them that if you ask God for patience (or help with patience) he’s gonna have to test you on it. How else will you get good at it? How will you learn how to use it? As for me, I try not to ask for it. Which is exactly what I have not been doing and I think that God is probably thinking he will teach it to me anyway. Yeah….
So, here’s what I have come up with: I deserve nothing. That said, no matter what happened yesterday or today or will happen tomorrow, God will still love me. His love is eternal and his movies all have a happy ending (at least they do if you choose Jesus) No matter what I wish would happen, my life is good. I deserve nothing, but God graciously gives me more than I deserve, even if my life movie right now is not a movie I would watch over and over again. This time is quite enough!
So, why am I excited about going to bed tonight? That is obvious. I am looking forward to learn what the next installment of my dream will bring.